i want to taste the salt of your skin

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 05:46:15 GMT

well, this is my life lately.

oh and watching a lot of code monkeys, and too many raspberries.
im spoiled. really happy. really thankful.

venting as usual

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 06:04:21 GMT

As soon as i got home, i got this stupid phone call from my best friend. Usually we fight about ridiculous crap and im over it, im just the kinda girl who hates arguing. He started yelling at me about a touchy subject and what not and i just hung up on him. he called me a few mins ago and apologized. I know i can trust him, and i know he will lead me in the right direction, but sometimes, there are some things i would rather ignore. and he knows that. he said hes going to let me make my own decisions, and if that doesnt go right he will be there for me. Idk i guess i have a good best friend.im being a stupid girl.

I ran a mile and a half tonight, i feel fucking great
after that the bestie picked me up and i went with him to best buy,
i know he just wanted to get me out of the house, we talked. good talk. he makes me realize i can over come all the little shit thats coming my way since ive over come huge obstacles that most people will never experience.
to be honest, im in a great mood
to be even more honest... urg i just cant.

So whos taking me to cuddle up some cute animals soon?

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 01:50:42 GMT

Just love the world that won't love you back

this is the first night in a few days that ill sleep in my own bed, and nothing beats a cold bed in the middle of autumn all to your self. Everet and i are about to see madball;sick of it all; blaghblagh, pretty stoked,
but im way more excited that i got the job at the body shop!

embrace me, surround me, as the rush comes

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 06:15:17 GMT

i smiled. i laughed. it hurt.
***** Im Not property.

oh yeah i did amazing hair cut part 2 on jacob wolfie today.
really. its RAD.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 03:52:44 GMT

You screwed up. Crushed my hopes, not my heart.
This girl doesnt get crushed anymore.
Every day i hate my job a little more, not because of the work, but because of who i am and what i do. but its my art, its my happiness. i really am my worst enemy.

$10,000 ....are paid to a stupid corporation, each time you hear "happy birthday" on film.
i wonder what they are doing with that money... good thing we were able to check off poverty, before someone wiped their ass with 10g and popped that shit on your big screen.

oh yeah. Sup Sobriety anniversary?

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 07:09:39 GMT

Went to Blacklisted, and Ceremony tonight with Everet. We heard my fav. Blacklisted songs and left, then ate yummy burritos. now im home. and i plan on sleeping in tomorrow. i love no beauty school on mondays. Im still heartbroken. but im a tough cookie.

I felt you in my legs before I ever met you
And when I laid beside you for the first time I told you
"I feel you in my heart and I don’t even know you"
And now we’re saying bye, bye, bye
Now we’re saying bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen
Calling
I felt you in my life before I ever thought to
Feel the need to lay down beside you and tell you
"I feel you in my heart and I don’t even know you"
And now we’re saying bye, bye, bye
Now we’re saying bye, bye, bye

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 04:20:44 GMT

I wish some people, would understand that im Not, stupid. I know whats going on. I just dont feel the need to tell people why im acting so strange, when you could just fucking come out and tell me, . dammit. haha

oh well all day yesterday i was so furious that i was on the verge of tears. but really dgaf. my life aint so bad.
im living life to the fullest with assholes and scumbags in my life, and im making money by sitting on my ass, or playing pretty pretty princess all day.
Went to EC tattoo today, 2nd home, dudes chill as fuck.
Hopefully everet will like the place, we;re going there before the show on Saturday to see if thats where he wants to get his ink done, concidering its ONLY $60 an hour ...yeah.. fucking cheap as hell.

anyways. im still looking for a job, still looking for a place, i want to move out asap.

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 23:08:36 GMT

What a crazy fucking weekend. I hate almost everyone at my school,
Reason number one: ALL MY SHIT GETS STOLEN.
Reason number two: complete anarchy in a 98% female environment is never good.

But i got a $35 tip... come on..who fucking tips 35$?.. im killer seriously. anyways, If all goes as planned, im driving up to LA with everet and his friend tonight.

haha im not falling for anyone. i just thought it was very appropriate.

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 01:44:18 GMT

Life hasnt changed much, its as amazing as usual.

The most amazing thunderstorm is going on behind me. I could listen to that sound for hours. I wouldn;t trade SanDiego for the world. Lately school has been better than ever. Really, i feel like im on top of the world.

1. WHO took your default pic?
verizon

2. Exactly what are you wearing right now?
im washing all my black/dark clothes right now so im wearing these stick to your guns shorts everet gave me & a white wife beater.

3. What is your current problem?
i need a new tint brush!!

4. What makes you most happy?
BEAUTY SCHOOL

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
tv party..black flag

6. do you like MTV?
nah, i dont watch anything on it

7. Name something that annoys you about people.
catching people in dirty filthy lies. and people who leave the cereal box open, or make my seat warm before i sit in it

Chapter 1:

Nickanames:
Nyd, nit nit, nyd kid, four foot fury, ahaha

2. eye color?
bleu

3.Hair color?
currently, red and blonde

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Chapter 2:
FAMILY.

1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
my roommates

2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?
never

3. Do you have any Siblings?
1 bro and 1 sis

Chapter 3:
FAVORITES.

1. Ice Cream:
MINT choc. chip

2. season:
Autumn

4. band:
dont ask

5. food:
sushi

6. drink(s) (non alcoholic):
diet pepsi

7. drink(s) (alcoholic):
jager bombs

8. sport:
sex, jk FOOTBALL!!

9. pen color:
..are you serious.

10. store:
Express

Chapter 4:
DO YOU-

1.Write on your hands?
NO.

2. Call people back?
i try to

3.Believe in love?
never ever

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
closest to the wall

5. Any mental/health issues?
hahaha.

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Chapter 5:
Have you..

1. been kissed?
haha are you serious?

3. Had physical therapy?
no?

4. Gotten surgery?
never

5. taken painkillers?
yes.

6. Been stung by a bee?
yes

7. Thrown up at a doctors office?
ew no
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Chapter 6:
Who/what was the last:

1. Movie you saw in the movie theatres?
simpsons

2. Person to text you?
mike

3. Thing you touched?
water bottle

4. Thing you ate?
twizler

5. Thing you said?
wake up!

6. Person you hugged?
someone at school

8. Person you called?
everet

9. Person to called you?
everet

10. Book you read?
theory books for school

12. Place you worked?
i need one

13. Time you cleaned your room?
this morning

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 06:22:24 GMT

i dont have to pay for my ticket.
sluuuuts!

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 02:27:11 GMT

hot young, non foreign construction workers give me lady wood like no other.

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 02:00:28 GMT

This wass the 2nd time Chris cheated on me, and the last time he did it was with kimberlee, and i ended up finding out after Chris TRIED having sex with me, i didnt because i read a text messages saying "lets not tell nydia about that happened last night." EVEN THOUGH i bought and took her out to dinner, HOURS after she had sex with him, even though she KNEW we were together.
the way men treat me is real cool. and the way women act is the latest whore trend.

I understand. I just wanted you to know it was intentional.

How did you find out by the way?
Out of ceriousity.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: nydi 2012
Date: Aug 10, 2007 8:02 AM

I Really appriciate you saying sorry..
but i honestly dont know what to say.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Kimmberlee
Date: Aug 10, 2007 12:47 AM

i know you know.
and i just want to say sorry.

i hate her. all i did was treat her like my best friend, and she slept with the guy i was dating... i KNOW some of you saw kim ad i together when she would come hang out with the guys and i are chris;s place, because i wanted to make her feel welcome. I LOVE MY LIFE SO MUCH. makes you feel worthless as fuck.

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 23:44:10 GMT

my parents flew out friday morining, if i wasnt partyig at my house..
i was partying with the dudes...
Quick.
If only you knew the shit that happeed saturday night... or the SHIT i found out about. thank god,
im such a lady, i would have ripped her face off..... i want to talk to someone about it.
girls are whores, and all guys are assholes.
im making the best of everythig. and i guess im calling that job back in PB...

How could this been done
By such a smiling sweetheart

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 15:11:50 GMT

not even those sweet little raspberry kisses on my face, can make me smile anymore

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 19:31:10 GMT

She say that she still wants a friendship
She can't live her life without me as a friend
I can't figure out why I give a damn to what she wants
I don't understand the now before the then
Most of this garbage I write that these people seem to like
Is about you and how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you, I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what I showed you how you could leave it
A friend in Chicago said that I should stay persistent
If I stay around I'm bound to break resistance
Fuck you Lucy for defining my existence
Fuck you and your differences

Ever since I was a young lad with a part-time dad
It was hard to find happiness inside of what I had
I studied my mother, I digested her pain
And vowed no women on my path would have to walk the same
Travel like sound across the fate ladder
I travel with spoon to mix this cake batter
And I travel with feels so I can deal with touch
It's like that, thank you very much, fuck you very much!

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
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Interpret the eyes, read the lines on her face
The sunshine is fake, how much time did I waste?
Fuck you Lucy for leaving me
Fuck you Lucy for not needing me
I wanna say fuck you because I still love you
No, I'm not okay, and I don't know what to do

Do I sound mad? Well I guess I'm a little pissed
Every action has a point, five points make a fist
You close 'em, you swing 'em, it's hurts when it hits
And the truth can be a bitch, but if the boot fits
I got an idea: You should get a tattoo that says "Warning"
That's all, just a warning, so the potential victim can take a left and save breath,
And avoid you, sober and upset in the morning
I wanna scream, "Fuck you ~~Lucy~~!"
But the problem is I love you ~~Lucy~~
So instead I'ma finish my drink and have another
While you think about how you used to be my lover

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 00:53:27 GMT

I guess you can say im having a hard time adjusting. Its getting harder to just *brush* things off. Anyways.

Came home, baked my sissy a cake.
Finally have time to relax, after running around in heals all day.

So still been sob. for a few days, but i feel so emotional and tired.
With so much more left to say, i feel like i should end here.

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 02:23:26 GMT

edc was insanely fun.
journey w/ chris,will,mitch,alex, and Max... \
we drove way past LA.... got lost, then lost in a bike gang
drove back, our reservations at the Omni hotel got screwed up..
but we got a sweet room anyways
drank more than possible
went to the rave, loveloveloved dancing to DnB
the colliseum was insane, i died out there, started feeling sick again.
back to the hotel, took an hour long shower, and slept like a baby
accidently left Max in LA..... hahahaha WE;RE DICKS!..
It was insanely fun.

anyways. my summer is over :] schhhchchcoool starts tomorrororw!

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 23:24:09 GMT

Almost got arrested last night,
basically, sunset cliffs. 7 guys and me, bon fire, beers,m jay, hiding in the cliffs, cops..Helicopters.
Funny story, but they let us go, laughed it off.

Lately life is too fucking perfect,
I decided on Palm Springs so im leaving on Friday hopefully with a few good people
want to get Inked out there.

I want some people to stop being so damn blind.

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 18:25:48 GMT

I love being happy with my decisions. I hate people who tell me who i am.
Watched Janis Joplin and The grateful dead on IFC
all morning.
i had to cancel my appointment.
I want to travel soon. I want to say i lived in the country, i lived in the city, the desert, THE OCEAN, Ireland, Tokyo, I want to play my piano in Iceland, i want to Fall inlove in New Zealand

Hahah, really i crack myself up.

I will always love this movie. I love that she falls in love and throws away her pills, and that hes afraid to love her, and in the end hes lonely as fuck.
As Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away he feels a loss. How is it possible, he thinks, to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her. Only then does he realize that wanting part of her and not all of her had hurt them both and how he cannot justify his actions except that... well... it was life.

Just let me down

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 04:06:57 GMT

I really dont expect much from people anymore.
Actually i dont expect anything at all.

Wed, 30 May 2007 04:55:05 GMT

Hopefully going to OB tomorrow night with a good group of people because i want to have a nice Vegan dinner with their lovely faces.
Something nice to look forward to, through all thise chaos.
I am Nydia. And I am becoming the biggest skeeze bag you will ever meet, because im too caught up looking for love. Warning, i will love you for 5-10 mins. Then i will get scared. and you will never hear from me again.
Its not too funny anymore.
Life is good. but goddamm nydkid seriously! what are you doing?

Thu, 17 May 2007 20:18:33 GMT

REALLY good times with Alex last night
we drove up to Corona to see Gathers' last show in CA.
illlyyyy alllex and our talks, dp, ...1492 FUCK YOU!
road trips with my best friend....Amazing.

I cant wait to not acknowledge your ..(multiple) existence in 22 days.

Sat, 12 May 2007 23:45:01 GMT

I GOT KICKED OUT
i just dont know what to do anymore.
everyone knows how much i hate it there, i dont belong there, that isnt my home. i hate my father more than life. i hope he rots, money is not love.

felt like i was whispering all day

Thu, 10 May 2007 02:11:31 GMT

Eric, KC and i ditched some class today, i dont remember, made breakfast consisting of hemp cereal and strawberries. and we ate them in my broken buddha garden hahaha. case of the cute morning.

really, im all better now. IS IT PARTY FRIDAY YET?
*** Nic is driving down for my performance!!!

Mon, 07 May 2007 02:17:54 GMT

confession: i think beer bellies on guys, are a major turn on
lumber jack kind of belly hhahah. one that i can just wrap on arms around and cuddle on hahaha
someone call my cell...